|my studio space at Berlin Art Institute|
When telling Dominik (my husby) about this opportunity to go to an artist residency, he, at first, was hesitant, because it wasn't cheap...and I would be away from him for a month. The same reasons I was quite hesitant about it. But then after just a nights sleep he was pretty sure I should do it. He even insisted that I attend. It would be such a great opportunity and I am so very pleased I have taken it.
I am at the end of my second week here and I could not be more grateful for my time so far. I am away from all distractions, I'm in the young art capital of Germany, and am surrounded by other wonderful creatives. I have nothing I have to do except grow this little baby in my belly and make art. How wonderful is my life!
At the beginning of the pregnancy my life felt totally out of control. I was feeling terribly, I feared a miscarriage, I was told by my doctor that I couldn't work at school for the duration of the pregnancy! What? I didn't feel like it was me or my life I was living. Totally out of control. When things are out of my control I have to kind of re-find my footing and try to live in this balance of chaos and control. I needed to make the most of this time of pivot and change in my life. And as an artist it's only natural that these thoughts and experiences manifest themselves in my artwork.
I’m curious about finding calm and contentment in the places we are and the places we want to be, in times we can take charge and times we have to let go. In these tiny mini paintings, I hope to bring you into a tiny tranquil, restful space as I share my investigation into control and freedom.
The second series that I am pleased with is a diptych of photographs I took which follow in this idea of control and letting go of control. As mentioned above, this was really emphasized when I became pregnant. I felt a total lack of control over my body and the baby's health, but there is a beauty in this surrender of control.
This work is a stand alone piece or part of a diptych in my quiet series. In these photographs I take a posture of peaceful surrender to the task of carrying a child.
It's a bit scary to put myself out there this much. Especially my artwork, I am self-conscious and struggle to be content with the work I produce. But I am finally creating consistently and making meaningful work and it feels so good!!!
Do you find that my work communicates my intentions? I'd love to hear your feedback.
Thanks for reading lovelies!