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Growing up: at 28

Getting older, I don't mind it. Not yet anyway. 

Growing up, it means more freedom and more responsibility. Dominik (my husband) says I've really changed. I am just as motivated and able to relax as ever, but Dom says there are a few small things that have changed drastically since he met me at 17 years old. I think responsibility and freedom are the two things that have influenced these little changes. 

He says I've cleaned up a lot. haha. I am much more punctual and tidy. My clothing, the spaces I live and work in, have all become more neat. 

I have changed. Those of you that knew me just 7 years ago are probably nodding your heads right now. I was dressed super raggedy. At that time I was volunteer at a homeless youth center, and one day one of the street kids asked me, "Hey Anna, are you one of the volunteers or clients here?" It was pretty clear that I looked like I lived on the streets. I had always worn what I wanted, regardless of what others around me were wearing. I wore the same thing almost every day. In college, my clothes said, "I don't care." 

One year after that, I was done with my masters in teaching, wearing pencil skirts, and granny blouses. Growing up to me at 24 meant dressing like an old lady. Teaching was the first time in my life that I was in charge, fully in charge (responsibility). This is when getting places on time and dressing a bit more presentable became necessary. My punctuality and appearance reflected me, and making a good impression with my appearance mattered, for what felt like the first time. I remember it being really uncomfortable to dress a certain way for others. It plagued me, almost morally. 

Growing up at 28 is embracing freedom and responsibility, in turn, doing what's right for me, but ready to put others above myself. I think I'm finding a healthier balance in myself, and in my style. I dress presentably. I try to wear things that are multifunctional, that I can wear teaching, playing music, or travel in. Having the freedom to do all these wonderful things comes with a lot of responsibility. I love growing up!

It's interesting, looking at the superficial changes that have been happening in my 20s. It's fun to try and find out what was and is motivating me to dress and act the way I do.

Superficial changes usually indicate inner changes. Agree or disagree?


P.S. I turn 29 on Wednesday. We'll see what growing up to me means at 29...

This Last Week: Getting Shit Done

A bit of a change in life and I can focus and really spend my time doing what feels good. 

I am proud of my accomplishments this last week! Dominik was away on an extended field trip with students and I lived the single life. I missed him a lot, and I love life with him much more, don't get me wrong. But, I guess it helps to get stuff done when you have a week more or less to yourself. When reflecting back on it, I began counting the hours and seeing why I felt really good about how I spent my time last week.

Out of the 168 hours in a week, last week I clocked (give or take a few hours):
- 6 working on my online vintage shop
- 53 sleeping
- 9 eating
- 3 planning for my business and events
- 1.5 driving
- 4 reading
- 6 watching "Friends"
- 32 working at school
- 1 talking on the phone
- 15 making art
- 15 hanging out with friends
- 2,5 cleaning the house
- 7 working in the garden
- 2 shopping for groceries and plants
- 3 blogging
- 6 surfing the web
- 4 cooking
- 0 quality time with my husband : (

Finallly working in the garden. 

Keeping house.

Hanging out with my little friend Theo. 

Screen-printing with my students.

Painting still-lives in the art class I am taking, and not teaching!

Are you really doing the things you want to be doing? Or just going through the motions?


Put Worry in its Place
I've been realizing I have let worry take over my mind a bit lately. I've been worrying about students, upcoming exhibitions, being productive enough, or recent times when I've messed up or hurt someone.

I've been allowing my worry to influence my life and rob me of sleep. I've been reading into it a bit and practicing a few of these things the past few weeks and they are helping.

Do What's in Your Power.
If you're worried about something coming up, do what you can for it. Once you have done what you can, acknowledge all that you have done, all the good in your life. Practicing gratitude instead of worry makes new connections in your brain and you (we) will slowly become a more positive, happy person (people).

Leave the Rest Behind.
I need to stop worrying about the past. When things occur or I am embarrassed, when I really goof up, there is nothing I can do about it. I can apologize and try to make it right if that is appropriate, but otherwise it's in the past. We can't turn back time. So, There is no point in giving those negative thoughts room in my mind any longer.

For things in the furture...We (myself included) need to be okay with having things that are not in our control.

Write It Down
Give yourself 10-20 minutes to worry and let it be constructive. Worrying can be good, it often saves us from bad things that could happen, but we shouldn't give ourselves too much time to worry.  Wait on your worry, until it is a good time to write it down or talk about it. Don't give worry too much space in your brain.

Imagine Things Turning out Well
-Rather than dwelling on everything that could go wrong. Why not imagine all the things going right. Imagine how happy you will be when things turn out wonderfully.

I'm going to continue practicing these things...I hope they are helpful to you too.

What kind of things do you do to keep a positive attitude and diminish worry?

Thanks for reading lovelies.


40 Facts...
  • I love plants but don't care for them well (yet).
  • I wear the most lovely sheepskin slippers every moment I'm at home. 
  • Frequently I can't sleep.
  • My husband and I do almost everything together, play in a band, work at the same school, sleep, etc...
  • I've only made love to one man.
  • I haven't picked my favorite art form yet. 
  • This house is the only place I can really call my home. The other places I've lived were all home but not MY HOME (I've moved a lot).
  • Summer is my most favoritest season. 
  • I invite people over to our place mostly so that I don't have to leave our home. 
  • I'm not a morning person, no matter how much I want to be. 
  • I have 10 childrens' names already picked out, but only plan on having 2-3 kids.
  • My first CD was Lauryn Hill's Misseducation. 
  • I learned to draw when I was 19 years old and then studied art in University. 
  • Buying lamps is one of my weaknesses.
  • I haven't found a food that I like to eat within an hour of waking up. 
  • Recently more often than not, I am waiting for a package from
  • Showering is a bi-weekly thing for me in winter.
  • I play music with my husband (Dominik Baer) in his band. (oh I already mentioned this).
  • I make up songs and dances just for fun, but also to make my husband laugh.
  • Printmaking is a process I will always love!
  • I married a man that grew up moving every 2 years. At times I secretly want to stay in one place forever. 
  • Spicy instant-noodles are my favorite midnight snack. 
  • I got to know some of my best friends on msn messenger in the late 90s. 
  • I have cried at every wedding I've ever been to, even if I don't know the couple. 
  • I cry often. Shedding tears left and right, more often happy than sad.
  • People say I'm a good communicator, though I feel as if I can't speak any language properly. 
  • I wasn't a picky eater until I moved to Germany at 24 years old. 
  • My favorite hobby is learning how to do something new. I'm most interested when I'm constantly learning new things about a subject or skill. 
  • I was a vegetarian for 4 years. Now I eat everything. 
  • Teaching art at a school both sucks up all my creativity and inspires me to create at the same time. I give away too many good ideas to my students.
  • I love watching good movies again and again.
  • I will never be a minimalist. 
  • I smoked my first cigarette all alone, when I was 13. I got the spins and had to lie down. 
  • One of my friends growing up once said to me "Anna, we're the cool kids at school." That day I  realized she wasn't that cool. 
  • Nights alone at home are my favorite.
  • At times I wish the world had one universal language that was a combination of the best words in every language. Feierabend = party evening, after work, in german, graeng jai = apologetic about inconveniencing someone, in Thai, and gizmo= meaning gadget in English, etc...
  • I can't remember the last time I was bored. 
  • I chemically straightened my hair when I was in grade 8. It didn't work at all.
  • Loving myself has always been a struggle of mine.
  • Loving others has come easy to me. I have only hated being around a hand-full of people in the duration of my life.
Thanks for reading lovelies. 



We Are Young...
Or so I thought...

Life is short. I can't believe how fast the years are passing. This summer will be 10 years since I graduated from high school. I always say, "We are young, we have all the time in the world to do all the things we'd like to do."

I'm nearly 30, my lady doctor told me just the other day that the clock is ticking. What? My biological clock is ticking? I can remember the day I became a woman, like it was yesterday.

I'm a generally content person. I enjoy life, I take life in slow, delightful strides. My nature is to make life work and take opportunities as they come.

It turns out I don't have much time here on earth and I need to focus on the few things I would like to do and do them! I don't mean I'm not going to go out and make a baby (don't get too excited mom). But at 28 almost 29 years old, I really need to take some time to really think about what I want to do with my years here on earth.

There just aren't as many years left, as I thought.