I live seeking understanding of identity, wild, and calm. My current work uses nature, in and around me as my muse. In my outdoor studio on the road or at my studio in Heidelberg, Germany, I investigate the relationship between control and wild.
While pregnant I realized how little control I had over my body and whether the little babe in me would survive full term or develop healthily. Since then, I have been conscious about situations in which I have control and don't. Living in this juxtaposition is exciting and nerve-racking. We all can make intentional marks in our lives but a the same time, there are natural elements which are out of our sphere of influence. I find calm and quiet in my work and in this life, even when control and wild are so near one another.
In my current practice, I find this calm when pushing and pulling paint on the canvas, dripping, and making marks and layers. I am using materials that are at times out of my control, such as swirling fluid paints and inks. I can influence them, but they move and collide when I turn my back on them for a moment. Walking this fine line of intention and chance is what interests me most about life and painting.
As humans we have a certain amount of influence over our lives, but so much is out of our control. I am visually cataloguing and rewriting my personal history.